Tuesday, January 12, 2010


Well believe it or not I have come full circle. I have waited the long, long, 8 months and it is time to start school again. Whew!

This was the fastest 8 months of my life.

I knew it was temporary, I knew that I would have to go back, and I have to admit when August rolled around I knew that I was supposed to be graduated. Paycheck after paycheck I knew that I was supposed to be making more, that if it wasn't for that 0.5 a point (Hello, Bitter party of one?) that I would be done, and I wouldn't still be waiting another 8 months to start back where I left off.

So here I am, and although it shouldn't be a big deal, I know I should be excited that I am (again) almost done, I have to admit that the only feeling that I feel is....Worried.

I am worried that I will fail again. Simple as that.

One little sentence, 8 huge words.

Last night I was laying in bed thinking "how I am going to get through this?" The papers, the test, the clinicals, work, running a household, raising a small child, etc., etc. I tossed and I turned, and I felt this peace come over me.

I was reminded of two scriptures that seemed to fit my situation perfectly.

Don't worry about anything, but pray about everything.
With thankful hearts offer up your prayers, and request to God.
Then, because you belong to Jesus Christ, God will bless you with a peace that no one completely understands.
And this peace will control the way you think and feel.
Philippians 4:6-7 (CEV)
The Lord will fight for you, you need only to be still
Exodus 14:14 (NIV)
I just laid in the bed, and enjoyed a peace that I haven't felt in weeks. I am resting tonight at the feet of a Father that loves me, and knows whats best for me. I will take peace in whatever his decision is in my life.
Needless to say, I'm not worried anymore.


Debbie said...

Good for you! With that attitude, I bet you will do so well:)

Mrs. Clean Freak said...

O yes! You hit the nail on the head. When you put GOD into your heart all trials and tribulations are no defeat to you. I am not perfect but i am learning to walk by faith and not by sight. I have things going on in ma life but hey I can't let that stop me, as with you. You cant let the obstacles get the way of your destination. I am cheering for you on ma end so "LETS GO!! WOO HOO!!"

Lisa said...

Be strong, stay focused, don't over commit yourself. YOU CAN DO IT!!!

Stopping by from SITS :-)

Chanda the Eco-Cheap Mom said...

I'm fond of the saying, Let go and let God! It's in His hands after all!

Stopping by from SITS. Have a great day!

Heather said...

Isn't it amazing how things like that come to us right when we need them? It's like someone puts them right there. :)

Good luck!

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